Coffee was a bad decision

I love coffee. I can drink it at almost any point in the day. Except nighttime if it is not decaf. Well tonight I made the mistake of drinking a large cup of regular coffee all because I wanted to have some new creamer.

And now my heart is racing and I'm wide-awake while being unusually exhausted.

Story of my life :)

So a little update on things.

The doctors' think they FINALLY figured out what is causing all the pain in my cheeks/forehead/sinus area. They took one look at up my nose and told me that it was swollen shut. They had no idea how I have been breathing through it the past 8 months. I'm on a super intense dose of steroids to try and bring some of the swelling down. If that doesn't make the pain go away I have to go see another specialist. So far the pain has been getting better... I think. I'm just praying that all of this is due to a nose tissue that is 3x the size it is supposed to be.

I went through 3 Blackberries (the PDA not the fruit) in 2 days this weekend. That was an adventure.

I'm also approximately 3 days away from 10 days of sunshine, sleep and free everything. Praise Him for Spring Break. I can't wait to see my family. I'll be in 4 states in 10 days, maybe another country if I can convince the fam to head to Mexico for the day. I haven't been to AZ since Easter of my sophomore year, and that was to say goodbye to my grandfather in hospice. Needless to say, it has been a long time since I've gone to AZ to rest. But this trip should be different. I want to visit his grave. See his final resting place. Bring some closure.

My thoughts are scattered tonight. Part of the blame belongs to the steroids, part of it to the coffee. Forgive me.

I had to watch "The Village" tonight for a Philosophy class. I forgot how odd that movie is, although one of my FAVORITE scenes in any movie takes place in it. Let me re-cap:

Ivy Walker: When we are married, will you dance with me? I find dancing very agreeable. Why can you not say what is in your head?

Lucius Hunt: Why can you not stop saying what is in yours? Why must you lead, when I want to lead? If I want to dance I will ask you to dance. If I want to speak I will open my mouth and speak. Everyone is forever plaguing me to speak further. Why? What good is it to tell you you are in my every thought from the time I wake? What good can come from my saying that I sometimes cannot think clearly or do my work properly? What gain can rise of my telling you the only time I feel fear as others do is when I think of you in harm? That is why I am on this porch, Ivy Walker. I fear for your safety before all others. And yes, I will dance with you on our wedding night.



Such a beautiful moment. So much underneath all that.





Lately I cannot get enough of:
Death Cab for Cutie- Plans
Snow Patrol- Eyes Open


I've got nothing.